The Special One..excerpt from 'Inside the Dragon's Heart'

THE SPECIAL ONE

Through the vastness of time

The heart seeks redemption

Broken and alone

Twisted and tormented by fate

No words to be spoken

No actions can be taken

Self-preservation by erecting walls

Closed off to all who would tread close

The days run into one another

The nights endless in their passage

Staring at an empty space across the bed

Once filled by a spark of love

Brutally stripped from your grasp

No amount of tears can cure

In silence always wondering why

Screaming out in agony inside the dreams

Gone from sight but not from mind

Only a marker to prove their existence

Flowers wither and constantly replaced

The void is irreparable

Life continues on

Memories urge the feet forward

Reminders of what had been

Take place of what should have come

A sullen anniversary

A visit to a somber place

Oh hallowed ground you stare into the heavens

Questioning how you deserved such anguish

Looking off in the distance

Searching for better days ahead

Survival is the priority

Carrying on beginning a new

Glimmer of a smile

Reflected from the sun’s warmth shining down

As if they guard your path

Allowing you the moments of contentment

Knowledge of a future reunion

Where your heart will finally be at peace

Gone by hardly forgotten

Life forever enriched by the special one

Sher …2002-08-05. (c)

Finding a compassionate shoulder

One of the hardest things about having #ChronicPain illnesses is the lack of comradeship and socializations because of the constant pain and zero desire to get out and talk to people. It's an exile not really wanted but thrown upon without permission or acknowledgement. It's so hard to want to be happy and friendly when you are wondering how long it will be before tears emerge from your eyes because the pain is unbearable.

The internet has presented so many solutions to being an almost 'shut in'. From social media sites to blogs (like mine) to networking, the internet connects us all in a global support group. Through social media, I have been able to connect with several people who suffer from the same illness or similar illnesses as I do and it has been almost a miracle (if you believe in such).

While I do get out on occasion (pain is usually about a 7), it is fantastic to meet someone in my circle that is out on a rare occasion as well.

It is important to remember that even though we can be housed up for days at a time because of the pain, our need for social interaction doesn't fade. We are social by nature and we need the input from others to aid us in our daily path called life.  My husband has recently reminded me that I am far too outgoing to not want to be around others. I guess the mundane day-after-day rituals need a good break once in awhile.

I got out. I saw the world. I interacted with people. Now I'm good till Christmas. Right??????

to be continued:)

DAILY TIP # 6

DAILY TIP # 6

Sometimes you have to walk the path less traveled to get the answers you need.