PAIN is such a rush....NOT

PAIN IS SUCH A RUSH....NOT

The last couple of days have been very challenging pain wise. After a very long drive to the doctor's office, the normal wait time in the waiting room and then the rushed up out the door appointment left me in severe pain, deeper depression and still no answers. 

Doctor has no clue as to why I'm having so many problems with keeping food down. While the IBS is the culprit for a large portion of the issue, there are several questions that just don't have adequate answers. At least for me anyways. 

Of course, the rotten weather isn't helping much either. The dismal sky, along with the dampness of the rain leave me wanting a hot tub, a large bottle of Tinhorn Creek Merlot and snuggling under the blankies with my hubby. Alas, life doesn't always agree to your desires. At least hockey is on :)

Tomorrow is another day, but tonight I remain in a depressive painful mood. As "Annie" would say, "The sun will come out tomorrow".

Weather and chronic pain

As many chronic pain sufferers can tell you, anything can be a trigger to set off a cascade of body aches, depression and a strong desire to find a small hole and hide away from the world.

For me, it's the weather that adversely affects my daily activities. My body is almost like a barometer, in that when the weather is going to change my body tells me immediately. The pain is unbearable and even my strongest of medications doesn't help. When the sun is shining and the temperature is moderate (65-75 degrees f/14-23 degrees c), the body aches ease a certain amount but that doesn't mean I still don't get flair ups during the summer. Cold, wet, and humid are villians and I don't even want to get started on what happens during snow season.

There is no perfect weather location to live because weather and chronic pain are just so unpredictable. As I stare out at the fall season hitting the west coast, I know my happy days are quickly coming to a close and the long painful winter season is approaching.

Arthritis, fibro, chronic pain syndrome and bad weather are really not good bed fellows.

But life goes on........

Thunderstorms...excerpt from 'Inside the Dragon's Heart'

Thunderstorms

 Storm brewing off in the distance

A roaring fire warms the candlelit room

Down filled blanket covers the floor

Half empty wine glasses rest easy

Thunder rolls louder and louder

Tears well in the fear stricken eyes

A gentle embrace to ensure security

Lips softly pressed together for reassurances

 Pillows tossed down to rest the heads

Goosebumps overwhelm the exposed flesh

The desire for snuggling close

Becomes stronger with each crack of lightening

Tears intensify as slight fear turns to terror

Curtains drawn tightly closed

Yet still the lightening intrudes

Screams echo in the house’s silence

 As a child the storms brought forth nightmares

The adult turns into the weeping child

Pleading for its ending

The thunder rolls as if angered by the pleads

With a final mighty crack of lightening

The skies open up to a torrential rain

Dousing the earth with its life-giving moisture

The thunder and lightening cease

As if commanded by the clouds

Another thunderstorm passes by

The season almost at its end

Fears subside a little more each time

One day gone for good

Till then there are always teddy bears!

Sher Boudreau..2002-08-22 ©